For Austrailian Readers

Hi
I have noticed a few hits from Australia that came by way of SulkyGirl's blog. I have no doubts that the disagreement between her and I are part of the reason for the visit. With that in mind, I wanted to share a few things about that disagreement.

For starters. I was not aware that Sulky Girl disliked me. I read her blog at TheLoveQuote, and left a few comments, and she shared some of her own thoughts. We never really talked though. I never sensed any animosity or any indications of desires to get to know one another. It really wasn't an issue. There is a quite a large body of water between her and I. I never expect anyone I meet to fall for me, or instantly want to be friends.

All I truly want from people is honesty. Just real, plain, and true and honesty. It will never happen though. It seems lies are woven into the very genetics of humans.

In the case of Sulky Girl. I honestly thought she was a nice person. I don't mean like sweet go out of her way helping orphans and invalids, and Mother Theresa nice person. I just mean someone who wouldn't go out of their way to do something mean spirited to another person. But she did just that to me. I hope I am not losing you here, because I want to explain why I believe this.

To begin with. I carried on a long distance relationship with the blogger Sulpicia. I noticed Sulky Girl mentioned that she never approved of the relationship because she is friends with Sulpicia and does not approve of me. The relationship with Sulpicia happened shortly after my wife died (and yes, I am painfully aware of how ill advised it was for me to be in the relationship). Sulpicia wrecked the relationship. She stopped talking and never explained why (despite her claims otherwise). I sent her money to cover half the cost of a non-refundable ticket she had purchased in order to visit me in person. She used that plane ticket for a vacation to Mexico and kept the money.

I wrote a post in another blog here in which I talked about my personal feelings and how much I was hurt. So hurt in fact, that anything associated with Sulpicia (including her home country of Canada) was painful to me, and thus I could not enjoy the Olympics which took place in Canada. Sulpicia chose to write a wonderfully insulting post about how stupid I was that she could ruin the Olympics for me.

Sulky Girl left a comment to that post. I don't have the full text, but I did copy and paste some of what she wrote. Here it is word for word. Exactly what she wrote.

sulkygirl said... heee heeeeeeeee heh heh heh heh heh heh..
laughing my tits off about you and the olympics.
like for true.
that is hilarious.

Anyone who is anyone knows that anyone from the internet is not really real.

This is about one third of what she wrote. At the time she wrote this comment. She knew Sulpicia was talking about me. Thus she knew she was laughing at me. I was hurt, and she was laughing at me for it. I was hurt, and she went on about how I wasn't real because I was across the Internet. Though I do not have the full text copied any longer. Sulky went on to be insulting by saying anyone from the internet is not real, like God, some imaginary being that is just made up. She knew I believed in God.

It is not possible for me to believe SulkyGirl is a nice person. It is not possible for me to believe a nice person would ever knowingly and intentionally laugh at someone who is hurting. It is not possible for me to believe a nice person would ever say someone in this world is not real. It is not possible for me to believe a nice person would insult another person's religion for their own amusement.

I never disliked Sulky Girl. Until she wrote those words. I was hurt and angered by them because I am a real person. I have real feelings. I do not enjoy being kicked when I am down. I sent her an email, and I did say some things which were wrong (please accept me not repeating them). I apologized for something specific I said because it was wrong for me to say it.

Sulky Girl never apologized for those words she posted on Sulpicia's blog. They both may say that no one ever reads their blogs. I know the truth. I have visitors who came from their blogs. Visitors from Australia, Canada, and the U.S.. Someone read what they wrote. Someone read things they posted in a public forum where it truly was possible for anyone in the world to read what they wrote. When she knew I was angry. She simply cut off communication. When she saw my comments. She just deleted them until she felt she had to respond, but she did not apologize. She just let me know how much she dislikes me and why.

I have some terrible things I wrote about Sulpicia. I won't apologize for it. I know she lied to me. She lied to me by text, by email, and over an Internet cam. I know she took money she never had a right to take from me, just a mere 6 months after I lost my wife. What kind of a person thinks it is ok to lie to and take money from someone who just lost their spouse? I won't deny, nor will I apologize for anything I said about her.

If you are friends with Sulky Girl. Yet you are here reading this. I did not write this to hurt that friendship. I don't expect sympathy or for anyone to just take my side of the story. I wrote this in acknowledgment that I have visitors who came here because of her blog. I wanted to share my side of the story. I just wanted to say. Please don't assume I am a bad person because I have had issues with the opposite sex that have left me with some bitterness. This would not be any more fair than to judge a woman who hates men because several of them cheated on her.

Peace to those from Australia. I hope someday to visit your country. To see the sun, the outback, the wildlife, and to drink the beer. As for Canada. I don't know still. I have only the one incredible poor example in Sulpicia for which to judge that country.